I used to lay awake and write my heart out
I'd pour my heart out
I'd tear my heart out
. .. .. .. ..
With a longing, yearning, burning hung-desire
my heart's desire
my heart on fire
. .. .. .. ..
and melodies of love would fill my head
and endless words of love would fill my bed
and she would sleep beside me peacefully
and I'd wish she'd awaken to know me
but she never read the words
all the songs she never heard
I would leave them everywhere
but it seemed she didn't care
why she never read the words
seemed to me to be absurd
even though I was always there
it seemed my heart could disappear
she stayed out there
she would not share
I was right here
. .. .. .. ..
the intimacies
that make intensities
emotional meaningful lifetimes
where left to live within my rhymes
the passions remained
on the physical planes
and I was left to wonder why
we could communicate like this
but she wouldn't even try
some people are afraid of words I guess
they have other ways to express their happiness
maybe that was all there was to it in the end
in the end
in the end
in the end
why she never read the words
all the songs she never heard
I would leave them everywhere
but it seemed she didn't care
why she never read the words
seemed to me to be absurd
even though I was always there
it seemed my heart could disappear
so I did.
.....
now I live within the words
all the songs you never heard
I still leave them everywhere
for anyone who cares
now I love within the words
and it may seem so absurd
but I was still always there
right now
right here....... .. .... . .......... ......... . ......
I guess I've just got to let go
and if I matter, you'll let me know
it's not a garden I can grow
it's something only you can show
when you want to
not when I want you to
not when I might need you
you do what you want to do
so asking for it doesn't make to real
you've got to show me how you feel
when you feel it in your heart and soul
without my influence or control
when you want to
not when I want you to
not when I might need you
you do what you want to do
I can't be sure of what is real
by asking you how you feel
you've got to do it on your own
so I will leave you alone
it's not that I care any less
I've got to trust you'll figure that out, I guess
I've got to just be patient and kind
and wait for the idea to start in your mind
when you want to
not when I want you to
not when I might need you
you do what you want to do
so if we're going to share again
I can't worry about how or when
I guess I've just got to let go
and if I matter, you'll let me know
it's not a garden I can grow
it's something only you can show
when you want to
not when I want you to
not when I might need you
you do what you want to do
I can't be sure of what is real
by asking you how you feel
you've got to do it on your own
so I will leave you alone
it's not that I care any less
I've got to trust you'll figure that out, I guess
I've got to just be patient and kind
and wait for the idea to start in your mind
when you want to
not when I want you to
not when I might need you
you do what you want to do
so if we're going to share again
I can't worry about how or when
so this is why I'm letting go
and if I matter, you'll let me know
it's not a garden I can grow
it's something only you can show
when you want to
not when I want you to
not when I might need you
you do what you want to do
so this is why I'm letting go
and if I matter, you'll let me know
it's not a garden I can grow
it's something only you can show
