One More Goodbye

I spend too many days sitting in the dark
not sure what to do with my time
I shoot too many arrows that miss their mark
and laugh it off with a rhyme

and the darkness is hollow, but so inviting
as if it can end my pain
there must be some reason, but I do not find it
anywhere in my brain

is there something wrong
I hear a voice say
and I do not want to respond
in any way
is there something wrong
it's a monotone
a voice in my head says
leave me alone

I spend too many hours alone in my room
eating spaghetti from a can
reading online about doom and gloom
I don't think this was my plan

I would if I could, but I don't have the broom
to sweep it all under the rug
I start at the walls that feel like a tomb
I've forgotten how to hug

is there something wrong
I hear a voice cry
and I do not want to respond
I don't know why
is there something wrong
I hear a voice groan
a chorus in my head says
leave me alone

please don't yell
please don't laugh
please don't want
my autograph
please don't cheer
please don't cry
please don't say
hello, goodbye

I can't stop
I can't go
I can't be
part of the show
I can't live
I can't die
I can't stand
one more goodbye

I spend to many hours alone
(musical break)

is there something wrong
I hear a voice say
and I do not want to respond
in any way
is there something wrong
it's a monotone
a voice in my head says
leave me alone

is there something wrong
I hear a voice cry
and I do not want to respond
I don't know why
is there something wrong
I hear a voice groan
a chorus in my head says
leave me alone

I can't stop
I can't go
I can't be
part of the show
I can't live
I can't die
I can't stand
one more goodbye