Obsessed

It's not that I'm obsessed
I just have no one to talk to
I have been betrayed so much
I don't know who to trust
It doesn't really matter
no one come close anyway
maybe invisible walls
the way I look
or the things I say

I'm just alone
and I still want to share
so I come here to write
cuz I know you care

even though you don't have time
to be as close as we once were
you were once my best friend
and I still remember her
even if it was a dream
all made up inside my head
it is just something I do
and likely will until I'm dead

It's not that I'm obsessed
I just have so much to share
and no one to share it with
so I just keep coming here
lost within these words I write
somehow I can find myself
even if it is a life
lived completely on a shelf

if its all inside my head
it is still the way I feel
and here in the words I write
I can somehow make it real

It's not that I'm obsessed
it is time that I confessed

I'm just alone
and I still want to share
so I come here to write
cuz I know you care