It feels so much better when I find the words and let them out.
It relieves all the pressure Of confusion and fear or doubt.
I don’t have to wonder why or what’s going on.
I can understand what is here and what is gone.
I know it’s my choice to be so alone.
I won’t compromise my love or ideals.
I am better off and do well on my own.
And I can come to except how the loneliness feels.
It’s better than pretending that pretending is OK.
It’s better than the hypocrisy that is the norm today.
It’s better than pretending that life of fear is here to stay.
Until someone loves honestly I will go on my own way.
Completely open honest love is the only game I’ll play.
It’s not that I’m any better than anyone else
It’s just that I won’t hide in some book on the shelf
I will accept that It’s OK to hurt somebody else
I won’t pretend that responsibility for my life
belongs to anyone but myself
So you can fight your battles and glorify your war
If you ask me why I don’t that’s not what I’m here for
I live my life to love and care and share all that I can
And if that leaves me with nothing then that was my plan
For what you may see as nothing means everything to me
It’s living a life made of love and being all that I can be
I hope someday you’ll understand... I hope someday you’ll see
completely open honesty is my security
survival of our species is the reality
that I live for and will get there When we set ourselves free
from the fear that clouds the mind and forms insanity
that justifies anything less than completely open honesty
It’s not that I’m any different than anybody else
I just will not seek my answers and books up on the shelf
I will not except that it’s OK to hurt somebody
I take responsibility for me upon myself
I check my email
and nothing's there
not many have it
not many care
When someone responds
I want to cheer
it's a sad email
when nothing's there
I check my voicemail
and nothing's there
and many have it
not many care
When someone calls me
I want to cheer
it's a sad voicemail
when nothing's there
Fourty-two followers on my Twitter feed
Fourty-two must not be online when I need
Two thousand friends on Facebook and no likes when I post
that's a sad and lonely Facebook to read
indeed
Maybe I'll finish this another time
for now I'll let myself fall asleep
Maybe it doesn't matter that I make it rhyme
I know I reach out to you a lot more than you have time for
I hope you don't mind or feel in any way put off
I live a lonely life in this world because I always ask for more
and it is rare that I find a person as kind as you are
I want people to care about each other more than they do
I want us all to share this world in peace and comfort
Competition can be fun but not at the point of a gun
We can overcome our fears when we decide to love more
Open the doors
let the love in
don't be afraid
hate will not win
if we just remember we all feel better when we care
we can overcome the fear and learn to share
I know I want to trust in a world of suspicion
I hope you don't ind or feel n any way put off
My motive is simply to bring a little joy into to this world
I think you are a lot like me, in fact I am sure
We want people to care about each other more than they do
We want everyone to share this world in peace and comfort
Competition can be fun but not at the point of a gun
We can overcome our fears when we decide to love more
Open the doors
let the love in
don't be afraid
hate will not win
if we just remember we all feel better when we care
we can overcome the fear and learn to share
security is found in honesty
honesty sets us free
fear is a cage of agony
just don't let it be
open your heart
open your mind
do all you can
to be good and kind
that is the way to peace and happiness
nurture the garden, clean up the mess
I know I am a dreamer from a time of innocence
I hope you don't ind or feel n any way put off
I live a lonely life in this world because I resist delusions
I stand for truth, let the lies be gone
my hope for humanity is my greatest strength
and it's always on
We want people to care about each other more than they do
We want everyone to share this world in peace and comfort
Competition can be fun but not at the point of a gun
We can overcome our fears when we decide to love more
Open the doors
let the love in
don't be afraid
hate will not win
if we just remember we all feel better when we care
we can overcome the fear and learn to share
maybe things have not always gone
the way we had them planned
but keep believing we shall overcome
and someday we'll all understand :)
I guess we're taking a break again
I hope it wasn't anything I did or said
you asked for a favor this weekend and I gave it
and since them there's been that awkward silence
that comes when you are pulling away
I don't know what to do or say
I guess we're drifting apart again
and later you will tell me it's all in my head
when you need a favor you'll be back in touch
and until then I'll wonder why the sharing stops
as suddenly as it does...
maybe the answer to why is just because
You don't help me find what I need
You don't care to know if I bleed
You don't want to know about me
so why do I want you to be
my family?
Is it all the time and energy
I invested in you
Is it all the love and money
I gave to you
Is it all the different parts of me
I trusted to you
When you needed me
I was there for you
all I want
is for you to be there for me too
But I guess we're taking a break again
I hope it wasn't anything I did or said
I give you anything you ask when you want it
and then I don't hear from your for a week or more
in these times when you are pulling away
I don't know what to do or say
I guess we're drifting apart again
should I believe it's all in my head?
when you need somrthing you'll be back in touch
and until then I'll wonder why the sharing stops
as suddenly as it does...
maybe the answer to why is just because
It's not that I'm obsessed
I just have no one to talk to
I have been betrayed so much
I don't know who to trust
It doesn't really matter
no one come close anyway
maybe invisible walls
the way I look
or the things I say
I'm just alone
and I still want to share
so I come here to write
cuz I know you care
even though you don't have time
to be as close as we once were
you were once my best friend
and I still remember her
even if it was a dream
all made up inside my head
it is just something I do
and likely will until I'm dead
It's not that I'm obsessed
I just have so much to share
and no one to share it with
so I just keep coming here
lost within these words I write
somehow I can find myself
even if it is a life
lived completely on a shelf
if its all inside my head
it is still the way I feel
and here in the words I write
I can somehow make it real
It's not that I'm obsessed
it is time that I confessed
I'm just alone
and I still want to share
so I come here to write
cuz I know you care
Will I die this alone
will I never find the friend
who stays on her own
someone on whom I can really depend
who do you depend on
who can you call in the middle of the night
who helps you carry on
who will always read every word you write
what is this life about
a long and lonely run
a quest for success
a lot of empty fun
we all are born alone
wide open hearts and minds
some go out in the world
some close their doors and blinds
some like to be alone
at leas that's what they say
but all I know is what I want most
is for this loneliness to go away
so lonely
so lonely I can't sleep at night
so lonely
so lonely this can't be right
so lonely
so lonely it makes me blind
so lonely
so lonely I'm losing my mind
losing my mind
losing my mind
losing my mind
Will I die this alone?
will I slip into madness alone
will I lay in some nursing home
wasting away alone
Would you care if you knew I would give everything to you
I live only for our happiness
Every living thing breaths the same air we all receive
So why are so many concerned with manliness
do you want to know
how to make love grow
open your whole heart
this is how we start
to share everything
beyond worshipping
open your whole heart
and you become a part
of everything
then you can see
how to be free
seriously
happy
happy
I would give anything to help you see
this truth is the way to be
I would give everything to set you free
but it is up to you to do... not me
it all becomes so clear
when you overcome fear
and open your whole heart
and become a part
of everything
sometimes I despair cuz i don't belong here
Don't give up, I still want to believe there is a place for us, somewhere in this world there is a place for me where I will not be used and abused and discarded and abandoned and somewhere there's a place where I belong and most of all, someone with whom I belong...
Would you care if you knew all the songs you never heard
I would die to give us peace
Every living thing love so much they look for it above
so would it be so caprice
to share it here and now
do you want to know how
open your whole heart
this is how we start
to share everything
beyond worshipping
open your whole heart
and you become a part
of everything
then you can see
how to be free
seriously
happy
happy
I would give anything to help you see
this truth is the way to be
I would give everything to set you free
but it is up to up to do... not me
it all becomes so clear
when you overcome fear
and open your whole heart
and become a part
of everything
I would die to help you see
this truth is the way to be
I would die to set you free
but it is up to you... not me
it's up to you.. to be
are you afraid of me?
can we share honesty?
is it just you or me
that keeps us from intimacy?
I don't mean sexually
I mean emotionally
we've been so close to each other,
sister, am I not your brother?
maybe you just learned
and being close has burned
so better to keep away
from the secrets you won't say
but don't you know I hear you
can't you see that is true
when you dare just look into my eyes
how can you not realize
I love you unconditionally
you can share anything in you with me
yet you hold back so much in secrecy
I just want to know are you afraid of me?
do you know that I already see?
(through every veil that hides your secrecy)
is that why, maybe, you are afraid of me?
I wish I hope you're not afraid of me
